27 Jan 2003

I am in this house and in the first room I'm in there is a huge mushroom. From its cap, Big Bird falls and we start to play together. Then Big Bird goes away. Each room is different and my identity changes with each room. The people in the room's change also.
I'm in one room, there is antiques and jewelry from the Titanic. There are only adults and they are dressed nice and dining. One room was a cold winter storm on the water and there is this massive anchor, with this guy selling plants that grow out of shells. He and I talked about how the native people could always tell where the plants were from the way the ice grew.
In another room this is stuff, piled high, so high someone has to help me out. In this room I find an old t-shirt to wear. Another room is filled with chairs, Lazyboys, all covered with stickers. I sit on one and go to sleep. When the people come back, there is a woman who is all surly with me because I wrinkled one of the stickers on the chair, which was weird because everything was punk.
Another room is an oddly shaped bathroom. I can't see anything because there are bubbles everywhere, and steam also. It's very pink and white.
At one point I'm traveling between two rooms and this Asian guy grabs me. I realize he is being chased, so I pretend to be making out with him, until his persecutors take off. In exchange, he covers for me to leave the street way.

09/30/2002

Brian and I have just moved into this apartment building. The building is designed as such: 1st floor is the lobby and a grocery store, the 2nd and 3rd floors have rooms and a swimming pool. the 4th floor has a dining area and a spa. We have a one bedroom but its just one room with two beds. The room is very crowded. Brian works through the night as a telephone operator of some kind. We keep getting all these porn magazines in the mail. There are guys who live in the building that are trying to hit on me. One of them looks like Matt Serina. I spend a bunch of the time in the pool, I walk on the bottom. I go to the spa, and the owner is there, he is having a bunch of problems.
The building is on a hill and at the bottom of the hill there is a village. I go to the village and meet Cris Stevens and also Anthony and Alyssa. I take Anthony up with me. He goes and lays in the mud and grass. Next I'm driving up with Alyssa and we parallel park. At one point I'm in the grocery store, counting out my change exactly. I ask if I can charge things to my room, but the clerk doesn't know.

09/04/2002

I am at a party, at the guy's place, and I'm eating all this candy. The Jolly Ranchers are spiked with LSD.

09/03/2002

I'm on a subway going to work. I get off at my stop and it's a big station underground. It's warm, steamy, full of people, things gray and brown. On top of the station is built a mall that goes upward. It is very fancy and the ground level is decorated like an English train station.
I go to work. It's my first day and I don't do anything. I have my coat on for a lot of the day. After work I go next door to this shoe store. There are so many pairs and I want them all.
I leave and it's snowing out. I'm on East Colfax, walking west. I'm struggling against the wind and snow. Now I'm on a side street, by an elementary school, possibly Stedman. I see this guy I went to school with; he's wearing shorts and a Hawaiian shirt. He tells me not to give up against the wind. We start walking together and I don't have a problem any more. The entire time I was struggling, not the other way around.

05/21/2002

It's night. I'm trying to escape from my mom's house. I leave on foot, but then return to get something. The house is further out than it really is. I go back three times, each time I get a little bit farther away before I have to turn back. There's a man with my mother, and they are watching TV. After I return the third time they kick me out. I'm worried about missing John, I'm supposed to take him to the prom.
Now it's day and I am on the same road, but in a car this time. There is a lot of traffic, and I am following a pedestrian.

01/07/2002

I'm in this house throwing a party. It's my grandmother's house, but she may have passed away. There is so much weed at this party. Everyone helps clean up and then we all leave.
My family is gathered at the Dexter house, they are all arguing over who gets to use it (grandma's house I think). Some of my friends are there; we are all sitting in the basement, rolling a blunt.

Dec 31, '01

There's this caravan of people walking along a boardwalk. Kayla and I are a part of it, and so are Dave Hoffman and Doug from the Argonaut. The boardwalk is alongside a river, and then a canyon. We're all in Africa.
At one point I walk through the river and at another point I am scared to take this jump on the boardwalk. It's getting late and we all arrive at a staying place. There we are eating and Dave Hoffman gets a beer. He puts a lime in it. Doug tells Dave to always check the food/fruit first and shows him that the bottle has worms in it.

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There's this older band and I'm trying to convince them to play again.

April 27, '01

I'm in the suburbs. Bill, Graeme, and at least I are having dinner with friends of the family. I go to the nearby mall, but Suzie's there. I'm walking around. Then Bill and I are in some Thrift store, owned by this older woman. There's a group of kids there. I'm finding all of these cool jewelry and make-up boxes. One has all sorts of stuff still in it, specifically map books, and one of the deserts. This guy who's with the kids starts talking to, and about, my dad. So my dad does something about it and he ends up going to jail for awhile.

Feb 16 '01 #2

I've just returned from a safari of sorts. I'm in India or maybe Asia and I'm at this cafe that's part of this huge estate. It's very green and luscious. There are lots of plants and flowers and it's warm. I arrive at the cafe and see all of the Angelo's crew. Kristian tells me that there's some guy waiting for me but that she doesn't really like him. I walk over and find it's Miguel.

Feb 16 '01 #1

I'm at a party. The apartment is on the first floor. I'm dressed nicely. Everything's going well, there's a lot of people with weed, myself included. I'm sitting on a love seat. All of a sudden these two people come in and say they are the police. I stuff my sack into the crack of the love seat and continue writing something. Then the two cops start harassing people, so I'm trying to get their names. It's one man and one woman. The man is standing to my side when some others return to the party. One guy walks up to the cop to kiss him, mistaking him for his boyfriend, but stops short realizing he is not his boyfriend. Then the male cop sits next to me and starts harassing me and touching me.
I just squirm around and I don't say anything or move. Soon it begins to get light out and the male cop says that they need to get going. When they leave I look out the window and see that they weren't even cops. They drive away in a white van, maybe a cleaning or repair van.

6/16/2000 #2

I'm going hiking with the guys and I'm packing a really big bag. I also have some cocaine that I put in a film canister. When we get there, there are other people there. We are in an underground train track area. There is fighting between us and them. I'm with this man and we're kissing, hugging. Then the fighting stops. Everyone is sitting along the walls, like in a plane. I kiss the man, then we get up and leave, saying nice good-byes to all.

6/16/2000

Alyssa and I are going to Waterworld and Suzie is escorting us. On the way there, Suzie informs us that it might snow. Alyssa responds that that's not funny. When we get there, everything's indoors. It's night, so all the lights are on inside. The building is cement and tile. It smells of warm pool and has a slight green tinged light. We get our tickets and then wait to get in. I'm having trouble finding the changing room, so this woman helps me. While we're in the changing room, this girl mentions that it's snowing out.

5/26/2000

I'm at this house where a bunch of people are staying. We go out hiking and there is this guy who's hitting on me. He's short and Mexican.
That evening everyone's around the fire in the living room. When it's time for bed, I go walking through all these rooms. Each room has three or four beds. Finally I find s room with just one bed in it. Soon after the Mexican comes in and gets in bed with me. Next thing I know he's trying to stick his dick in me.
I stop him and tell him that he hasn't even given me head, to which he responds: "What is head?" I explain it to him. Then I tell him that he also hasn't even kissed me. So the Mexican gets his mouth all slobbery and says: "Want a kiss?" I push him off and tell him to go away. Later I go into another room with Zach, and the Mexican's sister in it. The TV is on because the Mexican turned it on when he left in a huff. I ask the sister to turn it down and she seems surprised, she tells me that her brother told her I'm the one who wanted it on.

5/25/2000

Dream 1:
I'm in HI with Liz. It's night and we're staying in a house that looks like Elmira's. One of the roommates tells me how much she likes my second poem. Then there's some beef about smoking pot in the van, but I didn't do it. In the morning I leave.

Dream 2:
I'm having lunch with John and he's driving Brian's car. We go up to a diner in the foothills. After eating I go to freshen up and end up taking a shower. While I am doing that John leaves. In the middle of my shower I see this guy-we make eye contact through the window, and then I pull the shower curtains shut. When I get out and see that John's gone, I look around and see a school bus. I get in the driver's seat. All the kids fill up the bus, and they think that I'm the driver. I tell them that I don't think I should drive because I don't know how. I ask to be dropped off at, or near Colfax so that I can get back to my car. Instead I go back to the school with the kids. There I work with the kids, and I have a map out. One of the kids starts to tear the map. I use the techniques that I learned from teaching to speak to the student. The actual teacher is very impressed and we start to talk about me teaching.

4/29/2000

There's an evil dwarf and every time someone tries to kill him, he regenerates all his power into the different pieces. After they dwarfs have spread there is a study on how to kill them. They have long nails, and when they regenerate, if they're small enough, they take the form of screws until they're big enough.

4/24/2000

I'm driving in my car along the highway, heading towards the suburbs with Brian Feist. We're going to a school out there, an elementary school. We stay the night at his parent's house and they give me a bed to sleep in.
When we get to the we meet with Laura, Dave, Tom and Zach. I find a seat and sit down. There are also several other adults in the classroom. After a while of being taught we get up to leave, but they won't let us. So we start running about the school and they chase us. Finally they catch us and put us all in the same room to lecture us. There's a round table in it.

4/23/2000

I'm working at Angelo's and John is also working there. It's a busy day y casi todo esta aqui. I'm looking at the schedule and John is standing next to me, with his arm around me. Now we're hugging and then we're kissing. It's very intense and I can feel everyone walking past and snickering in the kitchen. Then it changes to John standing behind me, kind of draped over me. He begins to kiss my neck, I bend my head back and we start kissing again.
Orders are piling up on the grill window and I have to leave to get it all done. When I come back I'm sitting at the Employee booth. It's full. There's a couple women I work with and a couple little girls sitting at the table. John is sitting by himself at E1. The girls are all giggly and keep asking me if we're together. I don't know how to answer and I'm blushing, but smiling. There's a skylight above the booth and there's a lot of sunlight on me and the area.

4/19/2000

Dream #1:
I'm playing an interactive Star Wars game, on an Holideck (from Star Trek). I'm really into it, and am having a great time. I win, the game ends and the image fades. There are all these people who had been watching me, but I'm not embarrassed, in fact I'm excites to be in front of them all.

Dream #2:
I'm in a dorm room with Vida and Heath. We're working on a project and it's very multimedia. There's a round table and we're making a mess. It's night out and the light in the room is very yellow-orange. After we finish we clean off the table, and now it's rectangular. We take the project outside to put it in Vida's car. The parking lot looks like the one in Ft. Collins where Michaela lived. I notice a big brown glass jug of rubber cement rolling around on the ground. It's empty, but it looks like an old medicine bottle.

4/18/2000

I'm living in an apartment that is a lot like a warehouse. My neighbors and roommate all speak Spanish, and some are Latinos. My roommate is this petite woman and kind of spicy. She tells me that my speaking surprised her, por que soy gringa. Cuelgo el telefono y ella lo contesta. Habla en espanol, pero despues un poquito habla ingles, o me parace como ingles.
El cielo y la luz estan gris.

4/14/2000

I'm spending the night at Tom and Jenn Holohan's. They go to bed, but I'm still doing something. In the morning I go to meet the Clark family. We're at Sean and Christy's place, and Sean starts telling me how they all tripped the night before, and they thought there was something wrong with Josh. Then he tells me how dumb it was to trip with kids around.
I leave and am driving around town, but it is older and more industrial. Now I am at home and I keep saying that I want to know what an alligator means in a dream. I can't find that info anywhere and then I start to pout.

4/2/2000

I'm in a grocery store/warehouse with Suzie, and she has a baby. I am looking for some glue and so it this guy. At a table I run into this chick who went to East. She's also with her mom. I keep the conversation short, leaving it at I'm in school, but Suzie gives me a dirty look, so I tell them more. Then the mom starts to tell us that they found a bunch of letters in her ass, and now she's got some disease.
We leave. In the parking lot there is the Jeep and also a bicycle with a baby seat. I take the bike. It's summer and there's a lot of construction, we keep having to merge. When we get home I tell Suzie that I didn't know it was lethal to have stuff up your butt, and she says, "oh, yes, of course."
I tell her I've had stuff up my butt and then I take a big shit to show her.

3/3/2000

I am at a camp in the mountains. There is a dirt road and built houses, kind of close to each other, kind of like at the YMCA in Estes Park. I'm here with a female friend who's close to me. We're on the couch when a tiger comes in to play. My friend has no trouble with it, but I try and play with the tiger and it just climbs all over me and then goes behind the couch.
Luego I'm en la cuidad y es la noche. Tengo que it al aeropuerto para regrersar a Colorado, supongo. I'm trying to get there on time, even though I don't know when my plane leaves. First I'm at a bar trying to say goodbye to this guy, creo que el sea Jason, pero ne se por seguro. He's ordering a drink and then he turns around to say goodbye. I pull my skirt up, jump up, wrap my legs around him and we kiss very passionately. Finally I get going and there's some guy who's traveling with me.
We get to the turnstile and he insists on paying the 75 cents. Outside John Simpkins is waiting. He wanted to say bye but he couldn't get in. We hug and I go in, through these glass doors, then a short hallway, and some escalators. Jason and Howard are there to say bye. Jason's all drunk and shows me this picture of myself. Howard had given it to him, and Jason starts to get all emotional. Then Tomas shows up. It's a big reunion, but I have to keep going, so down the escalator I go. I don't know which flight i mine, so I go to this office where Coach Severtson is, but he's all rude to me. Then all these teachers walk in. I start to get sick and almost throw up.

11-3-1999

I'm studying and then all of a sudden I'm in a taxi with an infant next to me and a congratulations sign. I just had a kid, and it's Rich's. So I go out to Delaware.
Rich has a girlfriend, and they are actually really cute together. I stay for a couple of days, then I decide to give the baby to them because I want to travel and finish school.

6-7-1999

I'm back in Hawaii, and Michaela Welch has taken over my side of the room, which is now on a cruise ship. I get it back. It's the end of the semester and finals are soon.
Collin is there and so is his family-they are all a bunch of cops. He introduces me to his brother.
"You're stoned."
"No I'm not," but really I am.
"I'll catch you."
There is a party going on outside my room. There are lots of people and tons of pot smoking, but Collin's brother is convinced to get me. I actually think he's cute. He leaves and I try to study.
Pam comes in and I help her fold laundry. After we finish I go outside to the deck; I'm really worried about the brother getting me. There is this woman (entry ends abruptly...)

2-10-1999

Heath, Vida, Michaela and I go to the fair. It takes place in some building, but we get there while everything is closing down. I am at the last stand, and it leaves. There is only a table left. I am looking out the window at the sunset. It's an extremely beautiful Colorado sunset. There is an older gentle man who approaches me.
"Is this the end?"
I smile, pause and point to the sunset. "It's the way things end in Colorado."
The gentleman sits down and enjoys the sunset also.
Evan and Ryan come in, we start to shoot the shit. Evan, Ryan and the gentleman all give me their tickets. Ryan starts to jock the guy, and I tell him to leave the guy alone. I curtsy to the gentleman and he laughs. He asks me to dinner, and I accept, but have to change my clothes and car first. As I'm leaving, I see Vida, who's trying to find some shorts. I give her the tickets I have and she tries on these plastic shorts. I go out to the parking lot, to my car, which is this huge blue school bus. It's old and beat up, but it runs.
The wind blows by me and it's chilly. It's night. I go home and get changed. I meet the gentleman somewhere downtown. It's very fancy.
The next day I go to school. I'm in Spanish class and the teacher asks me about the gentleman. He's some big shot Jim Bean owner/organizer.