14 May 2004

Laura is telling me about Zach going on a date, and how he was all cute about it.

24 April 2004

A bunch of my friends are in my car smoking, and I am in such a stupor that I don't stop them.

18 April 2004

Dream 1:
I am at a high school gymnasium watching some team sporting event. There's this family, an odd family. There's a white haired patriarch who I beguile and befriend. Then the others let me in, they are all magic, and I also have a magic. I talk to the plants, I hold them close and they grow instantaneously. I speak to them in all sorts of languages, and they grow.

Dream 2:
I'm in a prison in the countryside. It feels like another era, my clothes are a bland heavy cotton. The prison has a large field, unkempt, and at first I'm all upset about being in prison, but then I fall in love with an inmate/guard. We sneak off into the field often and it's war, and I'm happy.

14 April 2004

I'm in a labor camp and there is a child adept with me. I help her escape and once we are out I carry the child so it can sleep. We are looking for her parents. We crawl through a vertical hamper into a room where a man, woman and possibly other children live.
They are the child's parents, but they are reluctant to take her back, and their reason for giving the child up was mundane and selfish.

03 March 2004

Brian, some others and I create this metal worm/snake machine that burrows. At one point we fight a giant rabbit.

10 Feb 2004

There is a great meteor shower raining down on the Earth. I'm not scared or anxious, I'm excited to see it. I have this crazy digital watch that shows the time of impact. I go over to Suzie's, and I am excited to see Kayla. There are a lot of people, and soon I leave.
I am in water, the ocean, and it is swelling. I am diving under the waves. Then I am in the Subaru, and Brian is driving. Jude, Christine, Jason and Betsy are there. Betsy is trying to get into the care on the driver's side, even though there is room for her in the back. She sits up front on my lap. We go to this hotel, and have a suite on one of the top floors. I am worried about the cost of the room, but there is no one at the counter to charge us, so it ends up not mattering, and we all watch the meteor's fall from the sky.

4 Feb 2004

I am with Vida, Noah, Brian and Zach at Laura's dad's place. We are there waiting for others. Her parents leave on a trip. Our group is just watching tv, so I go into the other room with Brian. He falls asleep, so I start to masturbate with a dildo that looks like a pacifier. Laura's step mom interrupts me; they have come back and they are fighting. Her dad sees almost oblivious to the step mom's ranting-she's preparing to leave him.
We all get ready to leave, we go outside to wait for our ride. I somehow get separated from the group. I am heading for a main street when a Dachshund walks out from the ally. I think he is so cute, and that Brian will love him. There is no owner around, but the dog is wearing a collar. It's night so I can't read it, I coax the dog under a light, which is in front of this house. The dog takes off, up the stairs and into the house.
I go after him. When I get into the house I find that it is a bar, and the dog is now a young boy who is regal. The boy is wearing a linen shirt. An eruption of noise takes place. The place is full of Mexican men, and they are going wild. I leave the place, running, and go hide in a car, where there is a woman changing. She is weirded out by my presence but says nothing when the guys are near. Zach sticks his head in and tells me that there are cops rounding everyone up.
Now it's daylight, and I go back into the house. It's empty, and flooded with light. It reminds me of a New Orleans' style place. The dog that was a boy is now a man, and he leads me to a table where there is a head dress, mask, and necklace. I put them all on. The man kisses my neck and when I'm done, he turns me around. I feel transformed into some kind of goddess.

6 Feb 2004

Brian joined the military and was away for two years. I didn't trust the military, I was afraid they were going to change him. So I kept spying on them.
One of the things that I saw was an office call a woman soldier in and she was all ditsy. He gave her some pathetic order and then slapped her ass as she walked out.

29 Jan 2004

I am searching for or heading towards an observatory.

25 Jan 2004

There is a man. I am hot and heavy for him and he also liked me.

24 Jan 2004

I am at a large house in a lush valley. there are a bunch of people there and I know most of them. The house is on a large plot of land, with a stream running through it. Over several days I go walking by the stream bed and each time there is some force that comes from the stream that scares me.
On one of the days I go walking with Bill, Suzie and Graeme. This time there is a pond by a stream. We all come to a spot by the pond. Bill is sitting at a piano, and we are all singing "lean on me". Afterwards we all lay down to nap in the warm sun and I say a blessing to protect us, and my fear is gone. Bill is sitting at the piano in the stream, Suzie is laying on the other side of the pond and Graeme and I are laying on the grassy bank of the stream.

21 Jan 2004

There is this big fat redneck, and he has monopolized all the stores in the area and he is a jerk to all the customers and a slime ball to the ladies.

17 Jan 2004

So many dreams: missing treasures, an old flag that Kayla was wearing, and a trunk Suzie had.
Then another night I dreamt: Brian and I are supposed to go on a vacation and when it comes time to go he has decided not to go. He is in he basement with Israel, and he wouldn't come out to talk with me. I am very angry. I want to break up with him, but know that saying it means it. I am looking at this podium, like the Olympic award pyramid, with three tiers. There is nothing on the first place tier, but on the two lower tiers there stands giant old trophies, and I place flowers on one side.

12 Jan 2004

I am at this grocery store. It's large with high ceilings and it's grey, dark, dingy. There's a lot of steel around. This is where the Angelo's employee party is being held. I am dressed warm and am drinking heavily. I wander from table to table socializing. At one point Brian comes in and doesn't talk to me. When I see him I aggressively flip him off while Liz is leading me to the back room to talk.

11 Jan 2004

Dream #1:
I'm on a road trip w/Annie, Heath and another. We stop at this one place to eat. Inside there is a man having sex with a younger woman, and she keeps getting blood splattered on her. When they are done she goes in the bathroom and when she comes out she looks like a beauty queen. One of the owner's sons is cute and we keep flirting. Then we overhear that the family is part of the mafia, so we leave. They are chasing us now.
We are driving a large, older model station wagon, and they are driving a bus. The mom is driving and we are weaving through the streets of a very hilly town.

Dream #2:
The world is some industrial place and my mother helps lead a revolution. She is killed but I carry on. We successfully overthrow the previous ruler, but his family lives. I am in charge, but am very casual. I don't want to kill the relatives but I know that they are planning to retaliate. They make this batch of wine, and I know it's been tampered with, but I let them serve it. Then I am one of the people who has drunk the wine and I can see what it's doing to everyone.

08 Jan 2004

It's evening and I'm walking in a large park in Denver. The city is louder than usual and in the park I find a stranded bear cub. It's crying. I go to it, cradle it, and take it back home where I warm the cub and feed it. It's day and warm for a while. Brian comes home and sees the cub. He tells me that we can not keep the cub, that it can't stay. I tell Brian that I would eventually call Animal Control, but for now I was watching the cub. We are living in an apartment on Logan and Colfax, but it's this huge and spacious ground floor flat, with a decent sized garden. There is at least one large tree in the garden.
Soon after, it's evening. Betsy and Jason come over for dinner. They bring two big blonde dogs over, and the dogs immediately start to antagonize the cub, who becomes defensive. I take the cub outside and lay it at the root of the tree, while the dogs stay inside.
Now it's the next day and I'm in a hurry. I leave without bringing the cub back in, though I don't realize it til later. When I return, it is still my home, but the apartment building looks different. The hallways are wide and there are tall ceilings. There are tenants, my neighbors, and they are painting the hallways with large artistic murals, over the lime green walls. The building is several stories tall and I go to the third floor into an apartment where a meeting is being held.
Everyone there is female, and it' very loud. I'm not really participating, and soon I leave. I go to my own apartment but Brian is at work. I step out onto Colfax in my underwear to get the paper. A car full of women see me and they cheer me on. I go back to my apartment where there are several guys. One guy gives me an invitation to his party, 'hand delivered', so he's sure I will go. I am trying my best to push him along his way and his companion is irritated at his shameless flirting. Another guy is a midget, who is practically stalking me, and I keep forcefully telling him to get out. He does not seem to hear me because he is almost in a trance while he declares his undying love for me. I eventually pretend to drop something down the hall, and when he goes to get it, I close the door on him. Shaken by all this I sneak out and go to meet Brian at work. Sporadically through out the dream I remember the bear cub and become anxious, having visions of his fur being a hallow shell with the entire body inside having disappeared because I never got back to him.

07 Jan 2004

I am at a friend's house. There are a group of us at his parents place, somewhere in Park Hill. It's a sunny day and there are lots of healthy vines growing over the windows and the light is speckling as it passes into the house. I am telling someone that I have seen this house many times.
"I'd walk by it everyday," I say. Later I return with the guy who's house it is. We are hanging out with his little sister and mother. We are sitting in the living room and I let him write something on my cheek with a Sharpie. I go into the kitchen where his mother and another woman are talking. I clean off what he wrote; some slogan about uneducated. I stand quietly and listen to them talk.

05 Jan 2004

It's warm out but there's fear of some sort of disaster. I'm over at Annie's mom's place and everyone is asleep. I grab a few things for safe keeping: a picture, a poem or the likes, maybe even a statue- all things with an emotional value, then I leave. When I return, everyone is up, and I give them back their stuff, but no disaster happened. There are many of my friends there. Brian is there also, but he is not affectionate with me; he sits and watches tv. Everyone joins him. I'm antsy, I don't want to watch tv, so I leave to another room.
Soon Seth comes in to talk to me. We go outside and shortly after the gangs shows up with cocaine. It's all choppy and I can't get it ground well. It's taking me a long time and people are getting upset with me, so I through it to the next person, get up and leave.

4 Nov 2003

I am driving the old Jeep up on the north side of Colfax, trying to get to campus. Kayla is in the car with me. Now we are walking, first over the Colfax highway and then we use the underpass. An officer stops us, and starts to examine the doohickey that I'm carrying. Angela and Roxanne are there and they're talking about work and schedules. I try to say something to them, but they are too far away. Finally Kayla and I enter a store.
Kayla has made some pants, and the shopkeeper buys them from her. I am very proud, but I am not paying attention to her. Instead I am engrossed in what I am doing. Kayla comes over to me and shows me this pretty necklace that she wants, but its $320. At one point, Tom and Jenn are there, buying presents for Cameron. Jenn buys the pants that Kayla made.

23 Oct 2003

ONE:
Brian and I are living at the Dexter house. It has snowed and everything is covered with an even layer cover it. I wake up in the dream, and I see that Brian is not there. I march out to the garage and open the door. Brian is fully dressed and showered and working on something. I'm upset that he showered without me, so I start to yell at him, yelling that I hate him, that he can go and fuck off.

TWO:
I am at a concert, on stage, and the singer has to leave. I am there with the microphone, to announce the singer, so instead I just start singing myself. At first I am nervous, but once I start to get into it, I do well and have a beautiful voice.

21 Oct 2003

I am at Christine and Jude's place. I enter through the back, and hang out on the patio. It's night, there are other people there too. I let the dog out on to the patio, the dog creeps me out. I let it back in and it morphs into an old man wearing a wool sweater like a capitan. He's saying something to me. Joe is there consoling me because what the man says seems to upset me.

19 Sept 2003

I am at a large indoor social function with a group of people I know. I am talking to someone when Arnold Schwarzenegger interrupts, escorting me into an adjacent room. He tells me in secrecy that he wants to become the president. I get right to work, understanding that this is my business. I am talking with him, brainstorming, but he looks only out the door, peeking, and hushing me. I walk off, thinking away as though I were some sort of genius.
Next thing, I am in a chair, outside, that is atop a thin column standing about two stories high, and there next to me is Laura. Neither of us seems to notice. I am focused on creating the currency of this to be presidency. When I have finished, we head back in through a window.

26 July 2003

Brian and I are to be wed, but one obstacle after another keeps interrupting. In particular, one of the male Lemmons has a modified shot gun. An officer arrives and stops the wedding on account of the gun. I ask this relative to get rid of the firearm, but he makes the fool and claims ignorance, while holding the rifle and cleaning it.