2-4-1999

I go over to Europe. I get there and meet up with Heath and Vida in some cafe. Then we part ways. I go to the hotel. I've got this huge bag of killer bud. There's this man who is with my mom, but he keeps cheating, so Suzie shuts the door on him. It catches his big toe, which keeps moving even though it is detached.
I meet my class at this pool, which is right by the border of Peru. It's high in the mountains. Looking down makes it look like you will fall off of the world. When the class takes off, me and this girl get left behind. She knows the way, it's over mountain tops, but they're huge cushy oranges. It scares me but she does it with such ease. She takes us to this door that leads us to home. There is this creature. It's a she. She's delicate and light, and has three toes with suction cup grips on them. She flows over the terrain.
The door leads to a strange reality where I am living with my boyfriend. He is of Irish decent: big, buff, kinda scraggly but kept. Smart and protective. We are living in this housing project, like those in "A Raisin in the Sun" or "Native Son". I do something out the window, or maybe it was down the hall, and the housing police come and arrest me.
I'm kind of behaving childlike, not really aware of the consequences of my actions. My boyfriend comes to help me, he knows one of the guards. He tells them that he will look out for me, and then we go back to our room. He just sits back down and writes something. I go over by the window and play in the sunshine.