12.8.1998

I'm at a mall with a large cafeteria, like the one in middle school. Everyone is in line to get food, and then each goes and sits with their friends. I walk in, feel a bit lost, alone. I get my food and look for a place to sit. I see Julia, Sonya, April and Andreas Coonas. I go and sit by them, but am very reserved. They are all bickering/chitchatting; what they say is childish and malicious. I begin to feel trapped, I want to leave. I get up and start to walk away. They all ask me what I'm doing, where I'm going. I can't answer, I just look at them and then leave.
I go out the door and there in the parking lot is a large crowd. It's a covered lot, so it is cold and I've got a growing feeling of paranoia and fear. There's these cops trying to talk to this guy, but he's wigging out, so they start wrestling. The crowd's cheering it all on and I'm caught right on the front lines. I fight my way out, pushing, running, confused.
Finally I get free and run toward the sunlight. I see ahead of me a huge patch of ice, and I just start to skate and dance on it. All my fear and paranoia have left me and I am happy just dancing on the ice. I finish and head toward the bus stop. I start running, thinking how good it'll be for me. I'm letting the events run through and out of my head. I round the corner full of life.