I Still Feel as if I'm Dancing

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

1-12-1999 Dream #1

I am at a friends house for a Christmas party. Jessica, Jenelle, Vida and some people from work are there, but Heath, Liz, Terry and Mike are not. We are in an apartment; the kitchen and the living room are downstairs, and the bedroom and bathroom are upstairs. After people have arrived I run out to my car to get a box of presents. As I am looking in the box at all the presents, I can't find Vida's. I begin to aggressively churn through the box, until I realize that I had already given it to her. People are just chilling, hanging out and then Andreas Coonas comes over, and it is at this point that I learn that the apartment is Andrew's. I begin loading my car and Andreas says something to me. I teasingly answer him and he just flips the fuck out, asking me: "Are you calling me a dog? You're calling me a dog, aren't you?"
I'm shocked. First I'm calm, then I try being firm with him, reassuring him that I did not call him a dog. We're standing in the doorway. I'm on the first step and he's at the threshold. He's right in my face, and I don't know how to handle it. Finally Andrew pulls Andreas off of me. I leave. I get to my car and can't find my keys, so I go back to the house. Andreas has left, and he has my keys. Andrew comes with me over to Andreas' house. On the way Andrew explains that Andreas has had some bad emotional things happen to him, so sometimes he's a little messed up.

Andreas' place is in Denver, but his back yard is a large barren land with a mill or a factory next door that has been abandoned. Outside the mill there is a large cut wood pile, stacked half way up the wall. We get there, but he will only speak in riddles. It takes us most of the night to get my keys back, and when we finally do, I find that Andreas has taken and hidden my table. I'm tired and frustrated and I don't want to play these games any more. I confront him. I'm angry, aggressive and trying to be intimidating. When I'm done, Andreas just looks at me, and then he starts to cry, telling me everything. Without thinking about it I give him a hug and hold him, rocking him like a child. After a while he calms down and eventually tells me that he hid the table in the wood pile out back, where it blends in. Andreas apologizes for how he had behaved. As I walk outside, the sun is beginning to rise and there is a mist about everything.

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